oh yeah, the over grown elephant. How dismayed was i when i first noticed that i am same height as T...or taller i wanted to scrunch myself down so as to appear shorter

my feminity was not helped by the problems in my marriage... months without any affection much less anything else. Right now i feel like some sort of half human. i don't feel like i can say i am a woman, like i am not allowed somehow. i get to the point where i feel foolish putting on something pretty even though i love pretty things... i feel like someone is going to laugh.. i feel like people will think i am a man in drag. It gets to ridiculous proportions.