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MzJelloFluff said:
my feminity was not helped by the problems in my marriage... months without any affection much less anything else.

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I read this and wasn't quite sure how to interpret who was the unaffectionate one. I am assuming it was him. My situation is reversed. My femininity and sexual preference are often daggers my husband throws at me. Our relationship is struggling. Because of this I sometimes just really can't stand to be around him, much less be affectionate. So instead of him trying to understand the underlying issues, he resorts to attacking my sexuality. If I become friends with a female and express a desire to go out to dinner or for drinks with her, he immediately calls her a lesbian and tries to make me feel uncomfortable about the relationship. Sometimes the marriage with kids.. thing messes up his argument, so then he will start calling her a drunk.

The really sad part about this is... sometimes these attacks work. I've now realized that I frequently avoid contact with my friends, change my behavior, or I question who I really am as a result of them. Even though intellectually my lack of attraction to him at the moment seems reasonable given our situation. Internally I still think there is something wrong with me. Irrational but true.