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I am the "host"....I personally... do not like the term... it makes me feel like an alien.... my alters post a great deal... but I don't...

so please forgive me if I "goof".. it is not intentional...

so... working with this body massage T... makes me very aware of my feelings... and how they impact my body...

believe it or not... it takes courage.... and.. I just don't know.. what I am able to do anymore...

want to quit therapy... the body work T..tell my therapist to "go to hxx"... and tell the body work T.. "BYE"

and throw in the towel... as they say

I also want to say the following:

"YOU WIN... to all of my abusers... YOU WIN... you destroyed me... that is what you wanted... and you have finally done it... I have fought and fought and fought... and I GIVE UP... so YOU WIN"....

is there any real reason not to do that????

I realized.. that without my dog... I am going to be totally... completely... alone... no one left...

so.... "I GIVE UP... abusers you may have my soul... you had my body... now you may have my soul.. I gift it to you"......