Thank you all.
I have been attached to a nurse when I was 15 and was in hospital.
You may be right.
I have books but I cant read, too difficult because of much meds but yesterday I bought coloring book and now I have activity to do.

Im gonna see my bf and Im afraid because its the first time I dont like to kiss him and I feel so numb.

Im not sure about my diagnosis, its in process yet but I feel that meds make me feel numb and empty

I wont see my doc for three days, yesterday I cried but today I simply know I dont have to wait for him to come in my room.