To everyone who responded:

Thank you for your kind words. I am at a very low point and am dealing with very strong feelings of humiliation in my life right now.

I have been quite insensitive on some posts which have only added to to these feelings.

I am so terribly screwed up right now, and all I want to do is run far, far away (again).

Please accept my apologies for being overly dramatic. My feelings were more from internal turmoil then from anything that was said.

I'm such a drama-queen