Hey Mouse,

I get this. It sounds like you dissociated in T's office. I have been there, done that too and I really get the idea of feeling safe with T's books, her things. They are constant. When I came back from Christmas break I told T that I was worried the room would be re-arranged.

I also have wishes to return to addictive behavior. Was never an alcoholic, but recently decided I wanted to be one. I was very addicted to nicotine and the other day picked up a cigarette and just held it it n my hand. Ohhhhh I would be able to cope so much better with a smoke right now!

Peace