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I've come to know you somewhat, although not as well as I'd like. IMO, you've come a heck of a long way since you first started here. You're far from the "argumentative" person I used to know. IMO, you communicate much, much better than you first did and in ways that make it easier, at least for me, to understand you better on a feeling level.
You're a well educated person, AS. Your mastery of the English language is better than most. It's been my experience that those that are gifted that way find it difficult to be understood as easily. Others are put off by it.
Please don't be so hard on yourself. Others being hard on you is enough, isn't it?
I like you and accept you just the way you are!
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.