Hi all.
This is my first post here. I am writing here because I feel utterly desperate and scared and have no one to talk to right now.
Basically I told my m about my b abusing me. I had already told her, and she already knew anyway, all along. I also said that I had remembered everything i.e the other abuse that i suffered too, which she knew too. She said that she doesn't believe me (she KNOWS it is true, she saw some proof years ago). She covered up all along. And she said that I am mad basically, and lots of other things to scare me. Such as essentially, that I can move out ( I have nowhere to go have ptsd and am ill). Or said that I have to confront my b (I am estranged from him) and that we should have a 'family meeting' but that I don't want that because I don't want to 'resolve it' . No, I want nothing to do with my family. My m is a narcissist, has emotionally abused me for years and is extremely manipulative and so it has left me very very scared. Because she will DESTROY me now. She has already done that in the past when I spoke. And I am so so scared. I was shaking for ages after. I feel I have failed to express how I feel. I feel so alone and so scared and so trapped. I do not know how to cope with the fear as it is so intense and it is from experience. I wish I hadn't said anything. I feel I have thrown myself straight into the wolves mouth. If any of you have any comforting words or have experienced similar, please tell me, it would really really help.