Oh boy... could I write a book about this one... This is the story of my life! As I've written, here on PC, several times previously, somehow (I don't know how) I learned very early in life that there were things about myself I must never talk about with anyone. And so I didn't... until I outed myself just a few years ago in the process of making a second bid to extinguish myself from this level of reality. As it turned out though, no one really wanted to hear it. So, after a while, I just slunk back into the closet, so to speak, & closed the door. I don't plan to come out again.