You're making sense.

It sounds like you're recognizing that what you're doing isn't working for you. You've given it a good try with the therapist and are recognizing that her style isn't a good match for what you need. That's not a good or bad reflection on either of you. It doesn't make you a loser or mean you're running away. It means that you're reflecting on whether your needs are being met and deciding how to make that happen.