My main reason for staying with her (I have brought all of the above up to her before, more than once), is this: I don't want to make a mistake, by leaving. I do like her. She *has* helped me. What if the person they put me with is worse? I wonder that maybe its *me,* I mean she means no harm (though that doesn't mean I'm not being harmed anyway), and I have jumped and run from people before in my life (like friends, boyfriends) and I have sometimes regretted it..like they seemed too black and white of decisions that I've made and I want to be able to work *with* people and not just run from them.