After therapy sessions and also after meetings with other health staff where I get counselling or similar I rather often ruminate about things I feel were perhaps a bit silly, too emotional, too caring to say or do.

As an example I´ve now had the last session before Christmas and me and my therapist are going to have a break for some weeks. I was in a sad mode because of other things and at the end when saying goodbye, I almost started to cry, I think it showed just before I said goodbye and left.

Now I ruminate about it a lot! I really didn´t want to show such emotions as my therapist isn´t important to such an extent that it was that emotional to me to leave for our Christmas break. I really hate when such things happen and I´m not thinking of telling her or anything but to me I can ruminate on such a thing for weeks.

Another example was when I had my last session before Christmas with my psychiatric nurse and she initiated a hug which I appreciate very much but I think that I perhaps said too much when I wished her a very nice Christmas and New years Eve. She didn´t mention Christmas or New Years Eve to me and I now think that perhaps this was too personal. I mean, I don´t know her personal situation, she might not celebrate Christmas or she has a sick husband to look after or similar.

I ruminate about such things very much as I don´t want anything to be questionable, too emotional or too personal when it comes to therapists and others that I don´t really know anything about.

Can anyone relate to this?