I am really LOW right now. Today, I forgot to pay the cable bill, it got shut off ( my ADD again slapping me in the face). So, I paid it and moved on. THEN.. I got in a damn car wreck! My husband is gonna be so upset and guess what I just let laps? Yeah, you guessed it.. the car insurance. I was going to pay the car insurance today when I got back home... I am trying so hard right now to do better and I keep falling back. Why cant I get it right?

I cant do anything right!!! Last night me and my Husband got into a fight over my depression and me getting help. I feel so miserable, like no one understands me anymore. I just want to shut myself in somewhere and cry.

I hurt so bad... damn, I don't think I have ever hurt like this before. I was just diagnosed with depression and on no meds right now. I just want help. I just want to feel better. I want to wake up and all of this go away!

And to top it all off, today is my Son's 11 birthday.. I got to pull myself up for supper. I don't know how I am going to do this when I cant stop crying.

I haven't told my husband about the car yet.. he gets home in about a hr. Man, I just fail at everything I touch...What more can go wrong?

Sorry to dump on you guys!

Kathy