I live in a small town like that. It has been 14 yrs for me being here too. I have not changed, nor will I. I am glad to be who I am. I stopped paying attention to them a long time ago. It is their lost to not care about other ppl and places. It is very cheap to live here is the only reason I live here. There is nothing wrong with the way u feel. It's normal. I wish u the best. Take Care.