Lots of ups and downs... and the downs were REALLY down.
I started the year with my alcohol/drug addiction getting dangerously bad. In February I accidentally overdosed and almost died. I was in a deep depression and my drinking got to the point where I would drink in class and at work, drink first thing in the morning and last thing at night.
In September I seemed to take a turn for the better, I was still drinking but not abusing drugs quite as often, and I felt happier. But then I went through a traumatic experience in October which caused a "relapse" in my panic attacks (not sure if that is the right word, but I hadn't had them in a while) and sent me straight down into depression.
But I started lamictal in November, and after about a month, I could really feel it starting to work. I feel stable now, most days I am pretty happy. The dark thoughts are always there and probably always will be but it's easier for me to ignore them now. Here's hoping for continued stability for me and for everyone in 2018.