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I did a good job at distracting myself, though, instead of sitting around obsessing over it.
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You'll have to give me some pointers on this one
Good for you!
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I was hoping to come out feeling a "therapy high" . . . I was hoping to come out feeling a "therapy high"
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I hate when that happens, it sucks!
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Mostly about what i want out of our relationship and that she is not my friend or my family so she doesnt think she can give me what it is im looking for . . . (soliaree, i know you relate to that a lot)
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Ughhh! Does it make your stomach sink like it does mine? It is excruciatingly painful and I can more than relate! This is what probably ruined your T high.
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but i looked up and said, "Oh, yea sorry." i should have been like, "not really i just got really upset all of a sudden." or something along those lines but i DIDNT and i REGRET IT.
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Krazibean, it will come! I know it is difficult, but this process takes a lot of patience. You will get upset in front of her when something upsets you and you are not thinking, "I need to cry. I need to cry." You know what I mean? I do this to myself all the time. If you want it to happen, it will
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She said she cares about me but its a different kind of care than her friends and family.
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I'm so glad that she agreed to see you on Friday! I asked my T if I could see him twice a week and he said he didn't think it would be a good idea. T's can make you feel on top of the world or on the bottom floor of hell. I guess the goal is to stop giving them that power. But that's excruciatingly painful, and who wants to be in pain?
Krazibean, all in all, it sounds like a good session! I'll be waiting to hear how it goes on Friday! Take care.