I am doing well. I am doing the laundry and trying to clean up the apartment before my online man visits. We are still talking daily. He and I are doing well. There are no dramas. I was invited to have lunch at my students' house. It was nice. They are a couple and are really hospitable. I was touched. I am happy I went to have lunch with them. Next week, I'm supposed to meet my college friend who I have not seen in 20 years. It should be fun! I am happy to get the opportunity to go out and meet people. The online man is coming the week after or the day after Christmas. He is my Christmas present. I am so excited about his coming here. I hope he is as excited as I am to meet in person. We have been sending messages back and forth daily for two months. It has been nice. We have also seen each other on videocam and talked to each other. I was surprised he has been nice all of this time. I really like him already. I hope he likes me when we meet. I have not met such a nice man before. This time I have been lucky. I hope we click and become a couple. I am looking forward to his coming.

I was contacted by my former married lover. I just sent greetings but basically am giving him the idea that I'm not interested anymore. He only comes around for sex. Who needs him? I'd rather have a man who is free than a man who has to lie about his actions and intentions. I did not know he was married but realized later that he is. Also, I was getting asked to have an affair by another married man who met me for language exchange but I blocked him. I don't know the reasons I receive such requests from married men. I am NOT interested in married men and never was. They have a tendency to lie about their marriage status and think they can get away with it. I'm NOT interested in married men.

I feel good about myself. I think this year was not bad. I am hoping my Christmas present- the online man is what I expect. I don't have too much high expectations but do hope he is what I think he is- a nice man with a good heart.

I am still taking my medication and am doing ok. I sometimes don't remember to take my med in the morning but take it later in the day. I have faithfully taken my medication daily for the past five years. I feel good. I am happy. I even drank some champagne yesterday with the couple for lunch. It gave me a buzz but I still took my medication. Life is going ok. No dramas and no major problems.