Good for you. Facing bad memories and bringing them out and showing them to someone who cares is a good thing. I hope that you continue to have other victories.
I have an uncomfortable desire too that I'm very ashamed of. I struggle against it when it shows up. It started when I was 14 and I fight it when it shows up. I believe that a lot of people who are sexually abused learn some of their desires during the abuse and for a lot of people it changes the course of what they prefer. It's not fair but, young minds are impressionable and it's difficult to try to change what we're used to doing, what we have always done. I hope that I never give in to the one that bothers me from time to time but, I have no doubt that some of my other desires stem from abuse as well.

Congratulations again on this triumph. Clearly you're a tough customer when it comes to facing your inner emotions.