I can empathize, because I've faced this from a friend at my church. He is a special forces veteran and had difficulty making friends. I opened up to him and became his friend. Yet he grabbed my wrist and it hurt the next two days. Then it happened he grabbed me by the throat and choked me. Later that night he threatened to kill me, telling me I know where you live. I immediately called my priest and put in a restraining order. I couldn't even sleep at night where I live after that attack. I was homeless with a home for a week until the protective order was issued.
I had to go to court and it was passed for two years. He can't go to my church If I am there, and I allowed him to have every other Sunday, every Saturday. While I have alt Sundays and every Wednesday.
I was terrified seeing him across from me at court. I couldn't even look at him because the memory of that night will always be with me. My priest is going to find a Christian Counselor to help me out.
So hang in there, don't know what happened to you. Wanted to share my trauma to let you know you are not alone.