I am not sure what to say, but this last line you posted: "But yeah, I bet you all just think I’m some whiny little “victim”. And I should have just gotten over all of this. How dare I complain. Only “victims” complain." was definitely off-putting and had me feeling reluctant to reply at all. Perhaps your defensive demeanor puts others off, it may be something to consider. I am sorry you have had a rough past.