maybe its the weather. maybe im jut letting stress get to me too much for too long. whatever the cause i am not happy. i have been dating my boyfriend for a year and he is always on my nerves. i havent been in a mature relationship before him and hes only had one total in his life. he has autism and while i dont judge him for that at ALL i do get tired of some of his quirks. im tired of always initiating everything. he wouldnt even kiss me til wed been dating for like 4-5 months. im tired of always making the move. im tired of his whining. im sure hes tired of me too. i have told him i loved him in the past with no response and now im not sure i do love him. we talk every day but i only see him 1-2 week for not very long. and im ok with that.

im going through a LOT of stress right now. its really affecting me. i dont know it this is just a result of stress or not but im just not happy and i hate that. im just not happy.