you know sometimes...I just want to be held. by somebody who cares. who I know cares. who is safe...and comforting...and better than seeing blood in any amount or for any reason. Right now is one of those times. I want to be held so badly. Every time I see one of my friends I have a little fantasy/daydream about them just holding me...for a minute it would be okay...for a minute I would feel safe. But then our conversation finishes and they walk away and never know anything. I'm 18 years old and I want to be held like a child...held and told that everything is going to be fine.
ignore this if you want. whatever. i just needed to do...something. I don't know. Am I the only one? are adults really children when it all falls down? =[