You are so not alone in feeling the way you do. I, too, find myself wanting to be held like a child. That safety, comfort, gentleness, caring and compassion.
It is so sad that we, as adults, don't feel comfortable asking for that closeness. It is so needed. I wish you had someone hold you and tell you that everything is going to be fine. Know that you are not alone. I am right there with you!

Me