Thank you kindly everyone, for your input and support!! It helps and I am very grateful for that help.

Agreed. Closure is a process and I can't force it.

Open Eyes -- thank you. You're right. I will never be listened to or validated. That is what I have to let go of here at this point. I need to provide the validation to myself. Similar to my car accident, this relationship was a hit and run. Argh.

Leomama -- to recover, I have done YouTube tutorials on recovery from abuse, I have journalled a TON, I have talked to my therapist each week about it and I have allowed myself to date and move on dating-wise. The journalling and my therapy have helped the most. YouTube has also been helpful for me in maintaining a NO CONTACT rule for myself.

HappyCheeks -- thanks for being happy for me. I am taking things as slow as I can with the new guy.......

If I am not addressing your comments directly, it doesn't mean I don't appreciate them! Everyone's input is greatly appreciated!!!! So to the others who have commented and provided support, I thank you from the bottom of my heart!