I am very sorry that I missed the original post. The last line, as posted above, was not at all offputting for me.

You are not a horrible person.

I am happy that you were able to obtain the support that you were seeking. I hope that you will in the future feel sufficiently safe here so as to again express whatever feelings you may have, including those expressed in the passage reported above, so as to gain solace and support from the many caring people who populate this site.