I'm having a harder time stopping smoking than I realized because I know that it actually relaxes me and I keep getting stressed out for no reason. The chemicals really do relax me or the actual plant really is that soothing. I know that sounds strange but I want to break the habit because my parents don't like that I smoke. I don't even like it because it feels like I'm bowing down and breaking my back all the time just smoking them.

I realize that smoking can't break my back but it stresses me out and I even enjoy it.