Hello socks: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time in your young life. Hopefully being here on PC can be of some comfort & support. By the way... there's no judgement here. I'm old. But I still have at least vague memories of what it was like to be 17 & some of the things I did so many years ago. (Sadly, in my case, it didn't end there. The bad choices continued well into my adult years.)

Anyway... what I want to say here is... the people in your life who are telling you it will get better are at least partially right. It may not be accurate to say they will get better. But it would be accurate to say they can get better. You can make it happen. And the good thing about your present situation is you have some understanding of what your circumstances are at the present time. That's a good foundation upon which to build. And the passage of time may not heal all wounds. But it does tend to make them more manageable. So you have both of those things in your favor.

It's good that you have family & friends around you... even if they don't seem to "get it" most of the time. And it's good you're in therapy. I know it only seems to be helping for an hour. But over the long haul it can help. And, as far as your med's go, if you haven't already, I'd encourage you to talk with your prescriber about what you're experiencing. Perhaps there are some adjustments that can be made that will make them more workable for you. Please don't give up hope. I know how difficult life can seem sometimes. And it's not just because you're young. Trust me... it can feel pretty darn hopeless as one gets older as well. But you can persevere & even triumph! Please keep posting. Writing about how you're feeling can help too. I wish you well...