Thanks for talking about the physical pain because I get that SO BAD at times and I try so hard to handle it without giving in and taking a Klonopin. I don't know if this pain is fibromyalgia or not. I do know that if I take a Klonopin it helps so much, but I don't like the side effects that I have to deal with if I take the Klonopin daily, it was horrible when I stopped taking it and had to suffer through withdrawals. I do like to have it on hand when I have been in pain so many days that I need to have some kind of relief.

For me, while the headlines and soundbites have brought things up in me, it's been really hard because of how my older brother just told me his cancer has spread and metastasized. The "little one" in me is having a really hard time with this. He has asked me not to tell anyone else in my family, I have felt so alone with this and the "little one" in me is so strong right now. I keep having the same flashback of him on that school bus being bullied and he is sitting alone looking out the window trying so hard not to let anyone see the tears running down his face.

I have felt so alone with that and I am trying so hard, and my husband has been yelling at me a lot lately because he says things to me and I don't respond to him fast enough.

Does anyone feel like all they want to do is sleep? I feel like that's the only time I get a break from "feeling" both the emotional pain and the physical pain.