Hey guys.

It's been a while. I wanted to give you all an update. Since this whole story went down a year ago I've been doing so much better. I feel the happiest I've ever felt.

I still have nightmares of this guy. He is always the monster in all of them. Chasing me, breaking into my house and refusing to leave. He's tried to contact me through his friends, by calling from unknown numbers and texting. I've ignored every call and message. Except last night. He messaged me asking to talk because he wanted to "close the circle." I felt like ignoring it, but a part of me told me that the reason he keeps insisting is because I ignore it instead of fighting. I told him everything I've ever wanted to say. Of course he fought back and blamed me, saying I was horrible to him and left him traumatized.

It made me doubt myself. "Did I actually have it that bad? Or was it me who was treating him bad?" I was reassured by my family, which lived with him as well, that did not do anything wrong. I was burnt out. Destroyed. I looked dead inside. All because I tried so hard to make things right.

Part of me feels relieved. Part of me feels like I did something wrong.