Oh, Lynda, how stressful for you. If you don't want to take meds you don't have to but if you complain to your T about symptoms then your T is going to be unhappy you are not on meds? Catch-22 there.

You need to sleep well as that's one thing fueling your panic. When our body's get out of order because we don't eat and sleep well, don't maintain the rhythms they're built to need, that is often more than half the battle.

Were I you, I'd distract myself from my some of my crisis work in order to get rest by taking up nutrition in some form; either reading about vitamins and minerals, etc. or taking up cooking of some sort, giving up fast food (I've done that) or checking out nutrition good for anxiety http://www.anxietysecrets.com/nutritionFrame-5.htm

Start a journal on what seems to help you and what doesn't and chart your panics; when they happen and what specirfic triggers them, how much sleep you get, etc.

Remember, the panic attacks are symptoms, they're not "real" in a sense. If you get too afraid of being afraid it only makes it worse (been there, done that :-)

March isn't that far. I'd try something else for February and tell your T about it and what you're doing and show him how you're trying something else and see if you can enlist him into helping you. I have a March doctor's appointment to (regular doctor) and I'm working on losing weight and getting my blood pressure down, etc. by natural means rather than meds and stuff.