I don't want to have 'BPD', at least not as a 'diagnosis'. I do think a lot of the traits fit me (won't say 'symptoms' and I'm really not comfortable with the 'disorder' part in the first place) but so do BD and CPTSD, which tbh all tend to merge traitwise anyway. On the whole I think CPTSD is the best fit for me and personally I tend to question how much CPTSD and childhood trauma generally underlies what is going on for a lot of people seen as BPD anyway. Part of my reluctance to engage with the whole idea of 'diagnosis' stems from my doubts about the medicalisation of something that I feel is more a set of survival strategies in response to extreme prolonged trauma and consequent disordered attachments and affect dysregulation.