it's me again. i posted a few months ago about my marriage comming to an end because of parenting issues.

i actually went to t the first time alone, and the following few times me and husband went together. when i went alone, my t told me to leave, that i had a right to be happy and a second divorce was not the end of the world, but losing my mind was

after a few visits to t together, not one thing has changed, with the exception that his son got into an accident and was in the hospital for 5 days (can't help but think i told you so when i voiced my concern over a 13 year old boy hanging out with 17-20 year olds), he has gotten suspended from school, and the cops were here looking for him as a suspect for damage to a car.

all these incidents are not a big thing to my husband. they warrant no need for change, the boy is alive after the accident, he punched a kid for saying something to him, and he wasn't actually the one that did the damage to the car, he was just hanging out watching the kid that did.

i have had enough. i realize i made a mistake 3 years ago. i cannot risk me and mine for the sake of a marriage i no longer have a desire to be in with a man i no longer desire. i cannot take the stress of wondering what this kid will do next and hoping that it doesn't involve my kids.

i have finally reached the end of this dead end road and am staring at the sign that tells it all "dead end". my heart sinks, i feel the anxiety well up from deep inside. i must find the courage to turn around. i know that that is the hardest part. the journey back is easy. i can take a better look at the signs i had missed as i sped past them before. i can look forward to what is ahead, knowing for a fact it is not a dead end, but a new beginning. i must turn around, i must find the strength, the will, the courage, and my pride that i have lost. i can do this.

i thank you all for your support in the past on the forums and in chat. it is nice to know there are still some good people out there willing to help out, even if it means just laying a shoulder out there. i wish you all the best. take care
gracetoo71