Hello Gypsy: I'm so sorry you are dealing with all of this tragedy. My condolences on your great loss. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support. I am a bit surprised by the responses you received from the mental health professionals you reached out to... but not especially so. There are some great ones out there. But there are some dogs too. From what you wrote, it sounds as though you unfortunately found only the dogs.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

https://forums.psychcentral.com/new-...introductions/

There's a lot of support that can be available here on PC. The more you post, & reply to other members' posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are the chat rooms where you'll be able to interact with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) So please keep posting!