I know how you feel-we lost our little girl Pug -aka Angel-last March-she was 13 days short of her 12th birthday. She had developed an enlarged heart the previous Oct. which occurs to her straining to breathe because of narrow nostrils. She was on lots of meds and they didn't help; her heart had deteriorated. The day she died, she'd had 2 strokes and couldn't see or stand up. I spent 1/2 hour with her that night-I held her on my chest, cried and gave her back to God. She kissed my arm & we had a sweet time.
Our next Pug will be a rescued one when the time is right!

My prayers are with you!

ocdchick