I don't know how old I was with my memories. I have a lot of fragmented memories when I was very young. I have been abused in one form, or another all of my life, and all through my life I have placed these things far away some ware in my mind. I am now 52, had a incident in the ER that I worked at, and lost it. That was in 2009. I have been disabled from that time, but I didn't get SSDI until 2012. It seems like I have been working on the abuse for many years, but it has only been about 2 years. I keep remembering, and having flash backs all the time now. But what is so strange to me is that I don't remember what triggered the breakdown. I do know, when I was born, my aunt took me to her home. I don't know wen I went with my parents, but my mom never wanted me. She even told me so when I was young. Both my parents were alcoholics, and I am one of 6 kids. Anyway I may in the future remember more of my life, and when.