Thank you all... and I mean it... truely.... do mean the support is wonderful..

I hope you all come back... and read this....

I found that I was reacting to.. news that my 23 year old son had just given me.... that... he was staying with his EX girlfriend another year.... they live as room mates..

This girlfriend... is an abuser... and yes... I am "seeing" things correctly... not just cause.. he is "my son".. and jealous mom... or anything like that...

This EX... has done... terrible hurtful things to me... and uses my love of my son against me...

So... I felt very... very... very... scared last night... and I reacted..

and it was like saying... I cannot keep fighting..

well.. I can.... I took alot of meds... I slept...

I talked to my best friend...

and yes... I can keep fighting... I can and I will keep my soul..

I will not lie down.. and be kicked.... any more..

changes are on the horizon for me... folks..

Thank you all... each and everyone of you....