This thread isn't as active as, say, the Dear T thread... You didn't kill it.

Maybe the part that knows you deserve decent treatment is surfacing only now because this part feels it's possible to obtain that from your T?

Why come forward only to be bitterly disappointed, might be how that part of you has felt in the past. But here is a guy who can handle you having negative feelings and still treat you with respect and decency. I could see where that would awaken this part of you, like watering a plant.