im trying. im a wrecke very night before bed and morning. while im there i maintain but im in a constant of worry and sadness most of the time. i wasd oing so well why is this happening? december and january and notoriously bad months for me for depression which i feel im heading into but im trying to push through. tomorrow i have to drive all the way to the other side of the big city to shadow someone to learn and then wednesday i work and then im off til i start worrying again on sunday.