Hey. Sorry about your friend. THat sucks. And sorry u can relate to my current misery.
Some days being human just really sucks.

I think I have finally stopped crying today. I just can't handle feeling everything. It's too much. All of it. And there is nobody- i am all alone about to fall (or jump)off the edge of the world. I so want to just throw my hands up and say fuuck it to everything. But I won't.

Im still here. I am Just trying to keep breathing and stay alive another day, hoping it will be a little less shiity than today was.
Hang in there.