Hey, give yourself some credit! You are making some very important steps towards helping yourself and your baby, by going to therapy again, and involving yourself with CPS, and even posting here.

Maybe before you even get to the session, think of those positive things you are doing. Recovery is a long road and each step is very important.

I don't know how to suggest to start your session except to be honest in how you are feeling. But remember, the fact that you are even going back to therapy is important and a sign that you do want to help yourself. I hope your therapist recognizes that.

Keep up the work you are doing, and perhaps try to find some support groups (12 step or otherwise) to keep you in a positive frame of mind too.