Remember, every job is stressful at the beginning, and what you're feeling is very normal, especially with mental illness adding additional stress beyond what the average person experiences. Be patient with yourself and make sure to practice good self care. At my current job, I cried every night for the first three months. It was awful. Then, with time, it's gotten easier. Just remember that you have to put yourself first. Be selfish during this difficult time and don't commit to things outside of work that you don't want to do or don't find fulfilling. Remember, your job is just one part of you. Even if you struggle with the stress, your boss thinks you're doing great, and you always do a wonderful job supporting people on this forum outside of work. Lots of people think very highly of you, so go easy on yourself. It sounds like you are actually doing very well considering how new you are to this job and to returning to work. Also, remember to treat yourself to something nice with that hard-earned money. It doesn't have to be something big or expensive--just something that brings you joy Best wishes with the drive tomorrow--I can relate to hating long, unfamiliar drives. The driving aspect of my current job was actually the hardest for me to get used to, even though it might be the easiest part of the job for others. Sleep well--I can't underscore enough the importance of getting enough sleep both with this illness and with working a stressful job. Good luck--we're pulling for you!