It’s been a terrible time for me. Everything went downhill this evening. Do not tell anybody, but I feel like crying. For me to say this is a first for me that I can remember. I rarely feel this way at all. I am also scared about my interview this Wednesday with a company who may help me find a professional job. I want to work part time in order to keep my SSDI. I do not know how I will function on a job that is demanding at times. My brain is in a fog right now. I do not know if I will be reliable due to my MI.

Still I am happy about some things in my life, like my daughter calling me on the phone to talk to me, which is a first. My ex treats me well. I think she still cares about me. I will be in a better situation soon concerning my income and expenses. I need to acknowledge the good that is happening to me. All is not bad.