My thoughts feel like a pinball machine right now.

It feels like there are so many things on my mind, internally, that I’m trying to sort out and make sense of.

On top of that my life right now feels like a three ring monkey circus.

Kids. Husband. Grand baby. Issues. Issues. Issues.

I can’t find a space to sort my thoughts and feelings out.

It feels like I’m triggered continuously.

It’s not like I can just check out and go find some time for myself right now. I really can’t.

That’s the most unnerving part.

It feels like I don’t have an option or a choice.

I KNOW there is always a choice, but I don’t feel like I can make a choice for me right now.

I feel like I have to be what is needed.

I don’t want to be in this place.

My son and his wife divorced and the little one is with me during the day.

They, the parents, are not communicating and I’m in a really hard place.

They both want what they want for themselves.

I really should just delete this but I’m hoping someone can read through what I’ve shared and have some words of encouragement

I could go on but it would sound like drama.

I’m just tired and I want things to be ok.

No replies are needed.

I think I just needed to put it somewhere.

Thank you for hearing me.