I am feeling fine. I took my daily med. Tomorrow, I meet my college friend who I have not met in 20 years. I am so excited!! She, of course, is doing well. She has two kids and is married. I am happy for her. I told her about my illness so she understands my situation. I hope we are not shocked by our appearances. I am really looking forward to seeing her again. Time has flown by. I used to be a gunner in college but then I became mentally ill right afterwards. I did well in college was near a 4.0 average. I also aspired to become a doctor but am not. I am not mad at my life but am thankful for what I have. Situations can change rapidly and can be out of one's control. I have no regrets. Of course, if I had been mentally stable, I may have become a doctor. But, fate dealt me a different deal. I am happy to be alive and relatively healthy. I could have, would have, should have are all behind me now. I am what I am today. I am not ashamed. I can say that my life was like a roller coaster. I am grateful for all that I am and have. Sometimes, you don't get what you want but get what you need. I don't think with a severe mental illness I would have been a good doctor. I am used to taking it easy now and can't imagine being under much stress. So, I am thankful for what I am doing now. I feel good about myself.

My online man and I are meeting in a week!! I am also excited about this. He is so sweet still. I hope we become a couple forever. I talk to him daily and feel good about him. He is my Christmas present. Hopefully, the best present I will have received for Christmas.