Oh Katz, I understand exactly what your feeling. I too am very lonely and I dont like it.

But, I am working on myself. Trying to change things about me that will make me feel more attractive. Actually, I am doing alot of things to reach that goal.

Sometimes I feel as if I could have a girlfriend but really dont want one because I just dont think I am ready yet. Then other times I think, why would anyone ever want to be with me? The last one is the one I believe most of the time, I know its not true. I just want to be solid within myself, in a good job and not needy. I dont, wont ever ask my next partner for emotional relief again.

I know I am a good person, even though my exwife and I had such a turbulent time she did say I was the kindenst man she had ever known. So I know I have some good qualities and that its ok to do some work on myself now. Besides, I have my cat, but I think he is having an affair or someone is feeding him better catfood as he has been staying out very late! The little ---t!

If you can enjoy you time alone. On New Years Eve, I was all alone in a huge city where I know noone I got the watercolors out and painted, (in my opinion) a pretty cool piece. It was fun too. Good luck, I know your a neat lady just by reading your posts.

Joe