Absolutely, positively, a HORRIFIC day. Why me? Why do I do things that make me feel exposed? I am disgusted with myself. Why can't I just be normal. I feel like going on a Forrest Gump Run and running until I can't run anymore.

Then, I am going to find a big boulder and dig a hole under it to hide from everyone.

Then I am going to parachute into the middle of the Saharan desert never to be found again.

Then I am going to the Amazon Rain Forest to meet a shaman so I can experience an ayahuasca ceremony that will possibly rid myself of this painful affliction called me.

help.