hi T, I think its time to for me to quit now. T says, ok well I can't stop you, and though in my heart I hope she will, I know this time she won't and I have to go ahead and do it, and I walk away from our room for ever knowing there is no going back and what the future holds I cannot see...and t's life continues and she gets a new client to feel my slot and she continues her life quite happily and I have just condemned myself to a hell on earth accept I have one option if only I can find the courage to finally do it properly, the end