thank u so much for replying. i did this post at the last minute right before i left for my sesssion & i was hoping someone would give me some encouraging words. well im back & it reallly well & im sooo glad i went. he said i was in a manic episode w/ psychosis type symptoms & i most surely needed to get on a bipolar med & a mood stabilizer. he wasnt mean to me for using while i was pregnant--he is proud of me for being clean for 3 months & taking steps to keep my precious Lily Mae. tomorrow is my pdoc appt & my t was going to fax him all of my info to get me stabilized on the right meds. my mental disability review is coming up & t said he & pdoc would work together to do my diagnosis & write my letter. i asked him what pdoc Miller is like & he said hes they type where he can be in a good mood or be a hard nose type person but hes a good Christian (i got to a Christian counseling type place) & also knows lots about brain chemistry & neurology. i just hope hes not mean to me cuz im sensitive & i beat myself up enough. plz pray my appt is at 11:40 tomorrow morning.