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Originally Posted by Tucson
I am beginning to realize that I may have had this happen through my life, some episodes worse than others. I need to know everyone’s experience with this and how it felt to you. For example, many years ago a had a full semester of classes in college. I would drive myself to my classes. One day I found myself in the cafeteria not understanding how I got there. This happened in the afternoon after my morning classes. I could not also remember anything of the morning classes, what I did, and where I was. It is as though I woke up to find myself there surrounded by people eating their lunch. This did scare me. I have had other episodes like this.
One time at a restaurant I was talking with someone I knew. I felt as though I was removed from what was happening. Next thing I knew, I found myself next to a car with my keys in my hand. I did not know where I was, whose car was next to me, and what I was doing with the keys in my hand. The car seemed totally foreign to me. Then reality came flooding in. I recognized that car as being my own. I then knew where I was. I unlocked the car and went home.
What does this sound like to you? Was I just self-absorbed? Or was something else happening to me? This came up in another thread here, but I would like to know specifically what this means. How serious is this? I think stress may explain some of this.
Thank you in advance for your helpful replies. I am happy to be here for the support you have been giving me me and the others here.
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What first occurred to me was fugue state. Then I found that that had been changed to dissociative disorder. The problem with that is there is no wandering (only a kind of fading in and out of consciousness) and, if I'm not mistaken, memory of identity remains intact. "Depersonalization" is a kind of out of body experience where one seems to observe himself or herself outside of the self--observance of mental processes and body. That doesn't seem to fit the events described here either. "Derealization" defined requires a belief that reality itself has been altered. I myself couldn't interpret any sentence or phrase here in a way that might suggest such a belief though one or more might exist. So, to this point and attempting to be objective, I see self-absorption as the best assessment.