Yes I will feel dirty, but I rather enjoy that feeling. My f-buddy and I were, hopefully still are, very dirty. We had sex in semi-public places and outright public places and it was very risky to have done them. The cops could have easily been involved had we gotten caught. It felt amazing and dirty. Dirty is fun!
My f-buddy wants more now, says she always did and used sex to get closer to me. Backwards of hope relationships should start, I know, but almost worked. I don't want this other woman to do the same.
I feel like I shouldn't, but I know I will. Have I lost control?